Just a Gwai Lo - fun within prescribed limits

Je': “I hate having crushes.” Crushes aren't so bad. It's the unrequited ones that are the worst. To my tremendous relief, I recently found out that one of the girls I have a crush on has a boyfriend. It's when the girl doesn't have a boyfriend, that's, somewhat paradoxically, the worst-case scenario. Actually, that's not true: it's when I can't tell either way that frustrates me the most. When the girl has a boyfriend, it means I can be pretty certain I don't have a chance. None of this uncertainty nonsense. Thinking that I have a glimmer of a chance, that sucks.